Kassandra's Ashes

I approve. I approve of myself. I approve of my discomfort for it is a clear sign my needs aren't being met. I approve of my needs. they are my lifeline and my protectors. I approve of my desire for attention. It reminds me that I still need healing from all the times I got denied it. I approve of my insecurity It shows me where I've longed for others' acceptance because I did not have from myself. I approve of my critical self. It denounces what needs to be done to get the quality of experience that I deserve. I approve of my fear. It helps me develop the clarity to fight and the courage to let go. I approve of my doubt. It gives me compassion for others and the wisdom of perspective. I approve of my uncertainty. It tells me I am still curiously exploring unknown territories. I approve of my dissatisfaction. It shows me where my passion still longs to be ignited by the flame of my heart's desire. I approve of my dishonesty. It allows

Will you rise to the challenge will you stand in your power will you cross the thick forest and slaughter the demons in your mind to join me at the castle's banquet? I am Queen of my reign and I've already fought many a battle I am searching for my King to stand beside me in the halls of this Palace I've been waiting so long met many a querent but none were strong enough to face me in my day of strength and hold me in my night of terrors I've walked alone like a Princess of Arrows down the bands of luxurious rivers and dined at the table of the Gods. I've feasted at parties of young and old and listened to the poet's laments and longings for love's lost. I have traveled many a weary miles and extended the hands of friendship to many deserving and undeserving hearts And finally, I have healed myself of deep wounds inflicted long ago. And now I walk alone, filled with awe and whole in my light, and darkness I salute mysel

will you love me? will I love you? will you see me? will I see you? will you still love me when you see me? will I still love you when I see you? if you show me yours I'll show you mine! you go first! no, you go first! If you shut me out I'll remain open if you stay in your armor I will respect your will this time when you turn your back on me or you stay safe locked behind easy words I will see the way I shut you off and turn away from you and when your eyes glaze over and you leave the room as I look at you I will see the way I leave myself and you as I run to some far away land when it gets too close to the bone and when you hug me even though you don't really feel close to me I will see what it is like to be so protective of myself that I mistrust others I crave connection with and end up feeling alone and finally, when you lose it and cry your heart out you'll make it possible for me to open mine and know what it feels like to allow my ow

shadows of past hauntings pools too deep to fathom bones too brittle eyes too tired mouths left gaping breaths left gasping grasping for letters falling like droplets filled with unknown tears of the lost treasures long hidden inside someone else' chambers lit by a single candle of hope and I don't know why and I don't know how it just flows through like the gift of an unborn child

Your face in everyman's face my demand for you to understand and love me as I am my search for the water that would finally fill the bottomless well my leaning on its side in a full moon's eve ready to jump in but on the beach it is me walking alone yet no more lonely dipping my feet into the ocean finally glad to be alive it is mine the smile when I stumble and get back up and recognize that I don't need your approval to be happy it is me who is already free it is me I must forgive it is mine the love for myself without conditions that I have been longing for but unwilling to give 2017